Birth, grief and Mother’s day.

Just over nine years ago I was in hospital, heavily pregnant and deep in grief. Baby Six number three (Little Bud) was almost here, my liver function was erratic and my Mum had died just three and a half short months earlier. My head was all over the place, my body was struggling and I was desperate not to lose this baby as well as my Mum. In January just gone, our not so little bundle of energy and mischief turned nine. Little Bud is a testimony to my Mum: feisty yet caring, passionate yet full […]

About me

I’ve been starting (and not quite finishing) lots of blog posts lately. That’s partly to do with my headspace just now, partly to do with a lack of discpline in writing and partly to do with our current state of inbetweenness… We’re playing around with the blog at the moment and trying to decide which direction we need to be taking it in over the coming months. That doesn’t help in knowing what to write about! So I thought I’d tell you a bit about me! My little family is my world. I’d go anywhere […]

We do love Christmas.

As I was writing the last blog I noticed that most of our posts in the run up to Christmas seemed to highlight some of the difficulties we face during the festive season. I thought it important to balance that out and write a little about how much we love Christmas. Christmas for us begins sometime in early November when I catch the girls singing Jingle Bells in the back of the car. Our general rule is that all Christmas related activity is restricted to December. Come the 1st of December I am happy for […]

What’s next?

Uncertainty I don’t think we have ever faced a new year with so much uncertainty. Every new year carries with it the promise of new hopes and plans but usually they are all within a well worn framework of life that has been established over the years. Usually plans have already been made, diary events are already pencilled in. But not this new year. This new year, more than ever, feels like stepping into the unknown. Change This time last year I had no idea of the level of change that was about to come […]

Christmas guilt (a bit of a rant)

“Mummy, will Santa bring me any Christmas presents? Cos I havent been very kind to my sisters today.” Last week we took our big girls to see the new Star Wars movie, The Last Jedi. Little Legs went to spend the morning with my sister and our two foster nephews at my sister’s house. They had a fun time and watched Arthur Christmas (the naughty and nice list trigger) and had cinema style snacks 😃 The big girls and I went to pick up Little Legs in the early afternoon and we’d talked about keeping […]

“Mum, what am I getting for Christmas?” A guest post.

Today’s guest post is written by an awesome Momma Bear friend of ours… Here’s Terrie’s build up to Christmas…   Last Tuesday my boy went back to school after Half-Term, when I picked him up he was visibly tense and had already gotten into a fight with his sister about who was sitting in the middle seat in the car (even though it was her turn, and he knew it.) I was expecting it to be honest, the first day back is always tough, especially when it’s the Autumn Term. After a minute or two […]

The Big Man

It’s that time of year again. I tend to spend November intermittently grumpy to be honest. No, I’m not ready for Christmas. No, I dont want to listen to Christmas music yet. No, I havent wrapped any presents…I honestly haven’t bought any! I cant think that far ahead. I often get cards and wrapping paper in the January sales but that’s as far as it goes. My Dad’s birthday is the middle of December. When my sister and I were kids, nothing Christmassy happened in our house until two days after his birthday. Which meant […]

Think Toddler

As an Occupational Therapist (in my pre-home ed, pre-adoption former life), my pre-registration training included a module on Child Development, which included lectures and some study time around the developmental stages of children. Once I qualified, I quickly settled in Paediatrics as my area of interest/knowledge/growing expertise. During my twelve years as a Paeds OT, I attended a number of excellent courses focussed both on child development norms and the variations we would often see amongst the children on our caseloads. These courses often focussed on physical, emotional, social, psychosocial, linguistic, cognitive and sensory development. […]

The view from here

It has been a while. Not because I, we, have nothing to say. More because there’s too much to say. Too much inside my head that I’m mulling over, dreaming about, stressing about, excited about, or processing. Much has changed and is changing for us. For the first time in almost twenty years together, neither of us are involved in church leadership of any kind. So far it has progressively felt right but bewildering, stressful, tiring, good, relaxing and still right. We are enjoying focussing on us, our family, our dreams for what’s next. Sundays […]

This is personal.

I’ve been brewing this post for a looooong while. Sitting on it until I felt I knew more clearly what I wanted to write about. This is personal. And it is political. And it is current. We are living in the middle of the consequences of austerity. And we are hanging on to the remains of what have always (in my lifetime) been pretty excellent healthcare experiences. Standing in A&E with my twelve year old on a trolley two weeks ago brought much into sharp focus. The relief of being able to access a free […]